This semester was one of the toughest since I decided to go to college. The most important thing that I learned this semester is that I have grown as a person. So many times I wanted to give up and I reached out to my advisor about my options a few times. Every single day I had class I was confronted with an issue or a challenge just to make it to school. I missed 3 weeks of class due to Covid and the fatigue from that illness is still relevant today. While I was approved for ADRC I still had challenges in my studio classes making it hard on me physically. The last week and a half was some of the worst with the elevator not accessible. This semester while I did create every project in all of my courses, I know that my work was not to my standard but it doesn't mean that I didn't care or didn't try. I legitimately gave 100 percent of everything I had in every project. The combination of being ill, the fatigue from it, being homeless, and losing a lot of other things personally took a large toll on me mentally and physically and I feel like even though I gave it my everything, it affected my work. But my growth came in never giving up.
I reflected on my goals for the beginning of class and was honestly surprised and overwhelmed that I had completed all of them. I was especially happy that I connected with other students and was able to help them with their work and processes. I have taken some time to think through things and the one thing that keeps coming back to me is the support that I had through the semester. In the past, I have always felt heard and supported but I didn't feel that way this semester. I didn't feel like I could talk about what was happening to me in a way that could help me work through it to have a better outcome in my work. Some of the students in class knew what was happening to me and were sincere and supportive but I didn't feel I could approach leadership. I think not having the freedom and confidence to express what was happening made me feel like I needed to just make it through and suffer. I did but I never gave up. I ended this semester feeling the way I did before ever having taken a sculpture class. I wouldn't fit in and make it but I did.
Unfortunately, I am at my max limit to add photos. I've tried deleting so I can but it won't let me.
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